I dont remember the last time a felt legit 'nervousness'...I think i skip that and jump straight to anxiety D:
I don't want revenge your own emotions will be your undoing
Been having dreams about the most important people in my life lately...Seems like my mind has a way of letting me know who's really important to me...
I think that when it comes to euthanasia, animals have better rights than us humans. I don't get why it's seen as more humane to put a suffering animal to sleep, but when it comes to a person, who can sometimes even SAY that they want it, it's murder and not allowed.
For some reason that I can't explain I have been trying to find the girl with the perfect face since forever, and haven't found her yet. I always keep an eye out, especially on those "beautiful models" Instagram posts. Again, I really don't know why I do this. Maybe I once tried to draw a girl and didn't find a reference picture I liked enough so I decided to keep looking. Maybe a friend once asked who the prettiest girl I know is and I couldn't decide. And now it's a mild obsession. I'm starting to think that there simply isn't a perfect face out there, and I don't know whether I like that or not.
And the feelings start to rise. Too bad I have to end it, cause I'm moving abroad. Makes me sad, cause she's a nice girl. Didn't think it'd get to the point of missing her.
You always think your problems are the worst until you get a problem that's REALLY bad and suddenly you wish you had your old, small, pointless problems back.
I just fucked up a lot. I sold a $10 coffee machine on an internet platform. Someone wanted to buy it, so I gave them my address. Who showed up were 3 guys - I know this is going to make me sound racist, but since most crimes in my area ARE committed by foreigners, I'm going to say it anyways. They were foreigners. I met them outside of my house to give them the item. They tried to talk me into letting them inside the house to "try it out". I honestly had the feeling that they weren't interested in the machine at all; when I tried to show them how it worked, they weren't interested, They just wanted to come inside to try it out. I refused. Then one of them tried to bring down the price, which I also declined, but while talking about it, the other two were walking around the front yard a little, looking into my windows and back yard. They finally left, taking the machine with them. I am now almost completely sure that they weren't interested in coffee at all, and were just trying to check out my house, I guess you know for what. I'm in so much fear now. I live alone and I'm not home most of the day due to work. I don't have any information about them, the internet name is probably fake. I hate myself for doing this; everyone knows that you shouldn't tell strangers your address, and I ignored all the precautions just for $10. It's still not enough to get the police involved, so there's nothing I can do.
Ive had undiagnosed parasites for idk how long. They can really fk up your mind and you dont know
All my friends are gone. They all moved to different states I have no one. I don’t even have co workers to befriend either. I’m so lonely and bored out of my mind I keep obsessing over random people because I want them to be my friend. Meeting new people is hard af I don’t even know where to begin. I don’t want to come off as creepy or weird but it’s like geezus christ can I get a friend please? Someone to hang out with, someone to talk to. There’s a girl that lives right around the corner from me that works somewhere I frequent and idk why but I really want to be friends. I have to drive past her house and her place of employment almost everywhere I go and her car is always home when she’s not working so it’s like you’re not doing anything, I’m not doing anything LETS BE FRIENDS AND GO FUCKING DO SOMETHING. I was ALWAYS the one in school to talk to the kids sitting alone at lunch or include the kids sitting alone during recess so they felt like someone cared or whatever and now I feel like I’m that kid that’s sitting alone wishing someone would make me feel worth something except now I’m an adult. Being an only child sucks ass. God please send me a friend... she’s right around the corner 😩