My ex friends don't talk to me anymore. I did chemo about 5 yrs ago and didn't take it well so I was really angry and snapping at people for the littlest shit. I was also very rude and offensive. Even so I think they quit on me too fast and easily. But I realized just now that even if they accepted me again it wouldn't be the same. There's too much bad blood to things work.
I am planning on faking a concussion just for attention cause I don't get any.
i was sad and down yesterday. i hate it. but im glad that there also some people who living like me so i wont feel alone. and i dont get it why people around me can live their life so damn fine while im trying so hard to at least not cry in a day. i ever tried to tell my friends about what ive been through and stuff but they didnt understand. i really hope today can end well. good luck for us today, lets start our day and eat delicious meals. lets make ourselves happy although for me today is not such a good day ;(
I barely watch any porn these days and when I do the scene is pretty vanilla mature women getting banged by dudes under 30. I'm almost 40 btw. It's just that I'm disenchanted with sex and relationships. I have many problems in my life right now and not having a gf or fwb is the least of my worries. Yes, you can say that porn or a real woman ain't supposed to solve my problems.
I HATE when people call me. It's such a weird pet peeve cause that's one of the main purposes of a phone, but it just annoys me when people randomly call me. ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY CALL FOR SHIT THEY CAN JUST TEXT ME ABOUT 🤯
I've been working retail for 4 years now, and I'm freaking, because I feel it's making me gradually more prejudiced against some races. And I hate it because I'm a minority myself. But some specific races keep doing the same rude shit and and inconsiderate insulting behavior and it's making me bitter and slightly uncomfortable whenever people from those races are around or near me.
I am having hallucinations right now and I'm very afraid. I've never had any before. And no, I didn't take drugs; I am ill and it probably comes from the weakness and fever. They aren't even severe; it just looked like it was raining outside, but it isn't. Now it looks like there's fog in my room, but only in one place, so I guess this isn't real either. What scares me about this is that I always thought I'm invincible to this sort of thing. That even though I can't trust on my body (I have a chronic illness and multiple other bodily issues), I can rely on my mind to function. When people talked about hallucinations, I honestly always thought this was kinda made up. I mean, I believed the people who said it, but some part of me just refused to believe that it happens... at least to me. You know? Like when you know that people really die from smoking but you still smoke because "not me". I guess I'm making a bigger fuss about this than I'd have to, and I'm sorry for sounding like a crybaby. I just feel unsafe in my own head right now and this isn't a pleasant feeling. (By the way, I'm going to the doctor tomorrow anyways and will tell him about it.)
It annoys me when my boyfriend asks me to go out and get something for him when I could've gotten it the day before while I was already out if he asked. Or when he could easily get it himself. If I'm going out anyway, like to work or grocery shop, just tell me anything you need that we have money for and I'll get it in one trip. Unless it's one of those days where traffic is really stressful, I don't care. I'd rather get it in one go than get some stuff and have to go back out the next day for one thing. Like the other day I was at the grocery store and asked if he wanted any pop. He gets caffeine headaches without it. He said no, didn't want any. Then the next day he asks me to get him some pop. Made me so annoyed, why didn't you say so yesterday?! We didnt get more money between now and then, and you know how you are with a caffeine headache. He got it himself.
i wanna have friends. i do have friends but still i feel alone, and im afraid to be in friendship thingy knowing everyone come and go and that always happen when i just accept them as my close friends. and i also dont have a boyf yet i feel so empty. i have no interest in my college things also ewh im tired
Buyers remorse is so lame. So I bought Sekiro, got stuck on the first real boss, and posted it on eBay. It really is as hard as they say. I want it gone. It's sitting there in a package waiting for a buyer. Mocking my poor choice. I literally had a nightmare about it last night. Not the plot of the game, the literal disc. Sitting their as a testament to my inability to make good purchases. Best case scenario, I'm out net $10. I'm such an idiot.