I'll just whistle blow and confess. I had a teacher in elementary school who actually tutored me and gave me so much guides to pass the exam. Little that I know the question and answers were all the things in the exam. I got a perfect score in all my classes ( 8 classes). My conscience hits me often and I felt deeply that I didn't deserve to be an honors kid then because my tutor who is my teacher gave me all the answers to the exam. I didn't get in trouble for it though.... though my teacher then knows I have a crush on him and I was thinking that's probably the reason why. But it was really unfair to other kids like me who get a perfect score as well and get no aid (or maybe they did because I found out when I was in high school, five of us are receiving the same situation). But it was my guilt all throughout. When I moved in a different country and in my middle school days I'm not getting perfect scores anymore and that teacher isn't my tutor anymore. I have no tutor but I still get good grades though. and in High School when I took the SAT exam, I got a perfect score but even though I know I have no tutor or is not cheating, it always reminds me of that guilt I had as a kid. So after that I literally and purposely make one answer wrong for the sake of not having a perfect score because I know I don't deserve it so on my other college exam (ACT) I almost aced it with. Now though I'm applying for an MCAT and I know I'm more mature and a grown person but for some reason I still have a guilt and probably I'll more likely and purposely wrong an answer I know on the exam but I wanna get over that guilt I just don't know how...
Mozart’s music is particularly difficult to perform. His admirable clarity exacts absolute cleanness; the slightest mistake in it stands out like black on white. It is music in which all the notes must be heard.
I get through my day just counting down the time until my next break/lunch. I felt like crap today but not crappy enough to call out or go home so I kept telling myself "just make it to break/lunch then take it from there". Only 1 hour 50 minutes until I'm off work and I can't wait.
sometimes i throw up after i eat a lot of food. i just want to be beautiful and loved.
i've fapped so much today my dick hurts, but i can't force my wife to have sex with me and i don't want to cheat on her
I don't know what I'm going to do once I graduate from college. I feel like this has taken up so much of my life and I've become used to the routine that I won't know what to do with myself after. I mean, I've been going to school for like 15 years total?? (Kindergarten-now) It's going to be so bizarre to not have that be a part of my life anymore. It's weird to say, but I think I might miss it.
Know the feeling of wanting someone to love you, but at the same time really enjoying being alone? Not anyone specific, just want someone to love me. Its just so easy being alone though
I know this is a controversial topic, but I don't think you're required to tip your waiter or anyone else providing a service for you. I don't say this because I never tip. I do, sometimes even a lot more than the recommended 10 percent, when I am really pleased with the worker's work. But if they were just okay, I only give a tip if I'm financially stable at the moment, if the price wasn't too high or if I'm simply in the mood for it. I just think that anyone who works in such industries knows what the wage is before they get into it, and my own income isn't so high that I can afford paying someone's income, to exaggerate a little. Especially not if I don't think they deserve it. (By the way, I'm not from America. I've heard that things are a bit different there, but in my country we have a minimum wage that you can at least survive off.)
Roses are red, my heart all sort of red because of you.
Going to therapy because my wife's depression is affecting me, too. I feel like I need to be more stable to be able to help her.