No matter how much you said you'll keep in contact for you will ALWAYS fall out at the end. It's sad but I guess that's life, sooner or later they'll just become a pure bittersweet distant memory. That's the ugly side of post high school.
It's been a crazy few months and thing are changing so rapidly I can barely stop to breath. I'm excited, I'm scared and I don't know if I'll be okay. This might sound like an exaggeration but I really hope I stay alive by the end of the year.
God forgive me for saying this but I don't want to deal with my mum's bullshit anymore. I'm done. It's NOT a phase, I meant it when I said it. I mean I love her and all she's still my mum but she can be too much to bear sometimes, it makes it harder than it already is to love her. I actually wish it was only me that feels this way. The longer I stay with her the worse it gets. I don't even care if I come to regret this later on but it needs to be said; I. DON'T. CARE. WHAT. HAPPENS. TO. HER.
I love being locked in male chastity device, no erection possible, and sometimes I wish somebody would either superglue the lock shut or break the key off in the lock making it permanent!
my body count has gone from 3 to 7 from being at college. yikes. im an 18 year old girl. i just cant stop myself from getting horny and fuck. like i dont want to regret it because the sex has been so good, but also, this number keeps rising.
I am listening to my coworkers discussion about why people get into relationship and why some couple end it. Some get into marriage just because they will have sleeping buddy, it's more likely you won't get an std because one partner, and you don't have to spend times and energy to wooing someone. Also you don't have to shop for new underwear because your spouse gonna do it for you. But her antique like checking which wet spot on the boxers, can drive man crazy.
I cheated on my boyfriend for a black guy. I don't regret it and will continue to do so.
My boyfriend's bestfriend is gay. He did told me once he was chasing her before until she came out gay. His bestie have a gf, but tbh, I kinda get jealous sometimes on the way they talk. I mean they're even moving to another state and live together as roomates. And idk why I'm jealous when I shouldn't be. They know each other for so long, they had a bond and I can't make him talk to her less because it's so selfish of me to do that. I can't see him sad and eventually start to dislike me because I'm isolating him to his friends. I can't do that to him. Plus our relationship is still new and if I'd be on his shoes, I'd choose my friends who I had bonded long with, over some girl who I just met off dating app and later decided to be steady with. And tbh, I try my best to make him live his life the way it is, I try not to see him everyday (only text him) because I don't want his life to revolve only around me. And that goes for me as well. I have work, school, and hobbies. Although I'm desperately in need of friends. Sometimes I think about it, maybe I feel jealous because I don't really have friends. I still do have so many baggages from the past and I have recently worked on that when I met him. My depression, anxiety, insecurities, lies, and acceptance. I have recently worked them off as why I'm now ready to make some friends. It took me 8 years to work on my problems too. But now this jealousy, it's so new to me and I'm scared that I should've started relationships with him in the first place. I could've worked on myself first. And regrets... Having it less in my life is what I'm lacking. I also lack descisiveness...
I go to a christian church because it's a way to make friends. But I'm not a christian nor even fully believe in it. I respect the religion because people in my church are nice but they dont kmow im not a Christian either.
I don't have a group of friends or close friends. I'm mostly alone and I don't connect to people easily. My boyfriend on the otherhand has many friends. Pretty social guy and I'm honestly insecure and jealous of his social life.