Sometimes I think that I might be actually mentally handicapped. Only slightly, but still. I have unnaturally low social skills. I am unable to hold eye contact. I almost get panic attacks when someone, even family, touches me. In stressful situations my mind shuts down so much that I can't even solve 2+4, and I mean that literally, with zero exaggeration. Even in situations without stress I often think or do so incredibly stupid things that I wonder if I've been dropped on the head as a baby. I am clumsy, but not in a cute way; I sometimes run into street lamps because I somehow don't manage to coordinate my feet and eyes. If I don't look at my feet while walking, I feel like walking with my eyes closed; I've been told that people actually look straight ahead while walking...? I could name more examples, but I am probably already boring you, so... in conclusion, it's all very small things, and nobody ever noticed because I do well in life, I have a degree and people see me as simply shy and clumsy. And I don't know if I'm paranoid or if something's wrong with me.
The depression is hitting me hard. My chest physically hurts from the emotional turmoil I'm going through. Fuck mental illness. This shit is ruining my life.
I'm tired and a little frustrated. I wanna dig deep into my issues so I can rid myself of porn.
Valentine's Day is not popularly celebrated in my boyfriend's country. Only like a very few do so I am expecting nothing on the 14th. Just a regular day even though it is an opposite in my country
So I met this girl in the middle of last semester and I kind of knew that she was into me at the time, the thing was that I thought I would never see her again because we are studying completely different courses. But ever since I met her, I saw her a lot of times and the thing is that she was really cool and I want to talk to her again but every time I see her I am with my friends and it is not option to ditch my friends just to talk to her and I know she still remembers me because holds a gaze and smiles at me every time she sees me, I just wish I can have another opportunity to talk to her again
It's just been a really bad week... and it's been so long. I feel like it's been a month since last weekend. I just want things to go back to normal.
girl for a talk?🙂 m19 here🖐🏻
I've been so deprived from male attention/interaction that I've had these two mini crushes on my two male co-workers - and they're not even my "type". They're good people, just not anyone I would ever in my right mind actually, romantically like. I think my brain is clouding over with desperation. I need help.
I have really bad self esteem issues, and it's been like this ever sense I was young. I can never see myself as good enough for anyone or anything. I always put myself down for everything. "Im not cute enough for anyone" "Im not skinny enough" "I'm not smart enough" "So and so is better than me" "I wish I looked like that" "Who would pick me when theres so many more better looking/smarter/wiser/deserving people". It's ALWAYS something. I don't hate myself, at least I never thought I did . . But the way I treat myself has started to make me think I do. I wish for once I was happy and accepting of who I am.
Is it okay to read kids chapterbooks and ya stuff as an adult?