I am sick and fucking tired of having BPD. Don't romanticize mental illness, it isn't fun to actually live with. 🙃
i need money to keep my dream possible, but also every hour i work makes me worse at making my dreams into reality. i wasted so much time, when i was teenager my parents would have paid for training if i annoyed them enough, but i just wanted to do nothing and lay down
7 times baby... SEVEN! why do you have this stupid power over me
How does one stop loving someone so much?
I wish we could help each other more here....its nice to get it off your chest but we all are still struggling.
I'm shaking so badly... All I want is to see him... My baby...
I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him I miss him... I miss my baby I miss my precious boy! Ugh everyday my heart aches! All I want to do is re-download that app I would chat with him on and talk for hours about everything and anything! I was to video chat and see his beautiful smile and meet him some day and be each other's first kiss!!! I want to give him all the love and affection he deserves and has been starved of till now!!! I want to sit on the couch and watch movies with him! I want to sit on his lap and look into his stormie gray eyes and see all the adoration I know would be in them! I want him to be mine forever! I want to grow old with him! I want to be with him on valentines day and tell him how important he is and how I could never find someone better in a million years!! BUT I CANT! I CANT HAVE HIM! AS MUCH AS HE'S EVERYTHING I WANT THERE IS MORE I NEEDDDD!! FROM MYSELF AND FROM HIM! so now I just sit and stare at the walls, crying whenever I think of him saying I love you or when I hear the cute hum in his voice when I'd tell him bes beautiful. I can't have him, but I want him. God I trust you for telling me no.... But this hurts, too much. I don't have the strength, I can't breathe God please take this.
I'm bisexual but I'm scared to come out. My husband would probably be ok with it. One of his best friends is a lesbian and he knows I'm a big LGBTQ+ supporter. I think he already gets a vibe I'm attracted to girls. I'm just scared to tell him when I say "I'd go gay for _____", it's not a joke. If we weren't together and I wasn't hiding in the closet, there are several women I would completely fall in love with. But I'm scared. Once I say it, I can't take it back. And my family is a pretty conservative, Christian, Republican bunch. There's one cousin who I know would be okay with it because she's a liberal, Democrat, and best friends with at least one gay person. That cousin, her husband, and their grown kids would totally be okay with it. But everyone else...probably not so much. As far as I know, I'm the only non straight person in the whole family (including my husband's family). I don't even **need** to come out. I'm not leaving my husband for a woman or anything. I could live as a passing for straight woman for all my life and nothing would change. But I don't want to hide this part of me. But I also don't want to ruin my relationship with all of my family so I can tell them "Hey, I'm attracted to girls especially blondes with short hair". I don't know what's worse: Coming out to my Mawmaw and Grandma and having them reject me; or never coming out to them, they die, and I'm left wondering if they would've accepted me and should've known. For now, I think I might only come out to my husband and maybe some coworkers if it comes up in conversation. And maybe that one cousin, but we don't talk that much.
I am so in love with my moms friends son. We’re the same age and he’s perfect for me, I’ve crushed on him since Kindergarten. I literally want to marry him.
i'm in crisis identity, i feel like i don't belong to anywhere