Is Loner still commenting on here?
My depression is back and my will to live is getting weaker... the woman i have loved for as long as i can remember doesn't love me and we haven't spoken in over 2 years, i miss her, we were best friends and lived many things together, i just hope she's happy with her boyfriend but at times i wish she would came back to me and give me a chance, but i know thats not going to happen... Since we haven't spoken in 2 years i fear that the person i love has change so much that at this point i love this ghost of her. it's a scary thought, but i dont believe people deep down change that much. I fear i'm never getting over her and that i will never love somebody else has much as her and that no one else is ever going to love me... I'm almost 24 and i still feel like a kid... i feel in love with her at 15...
When I was about 6 I felt bad for the fish in the pet shop and Idk why but I thought I was a liberator of fish so I cut the top off of a juicebox and filled it up with water and decided to go and rescue a fish.. so while the employees werent looking, I took a little fish and put it in the juicebox and then I ran down to the river.. I poured the juicebox out with the fish in it.. it swam for a second and went belly up and floated away... I later realised that salt water fish cant survive in fresh water rivers...
I actual don't find social awkward people unattractive, I don't get turned on by it, but it isn't unattractive either
U know that slow sadness of thinking back to the girl (or man) that rejected u? Yeah...... And the tingling u get after saying something cute to her (or him)? But then sadness sweeps in cuz u know u can't have her (or him)...
I've only dated two guys and both times was because I just didn't want people to know that I'm really into girls also...I'm bi, but that's not cool when your from a small town.
I have a chemistry test tomorrow but every time I try to study I get anxious.. if I can't get myself to start studying, I know I'm going to fail.. I wish school would just be over bc I don't know how much more I can take. The stress is getting to me and I can see myself fading back into depression and anxiety and feeling very dependent on others.. somebody help me.. I'm dying inside.
I got a C+ on my science quiz and the teacher had to talk to me. Then I started to cry, but it was more that my eyes got really watery.
I'm so confused. There's a girl in my class I'm very interested and I thought she was too : she either looked away very fast (to look at the wall/ ground/ something pointless) or gave me the sweetest stare (less often but a few times). We barely talked to each other and always had friends around so it went on for a few weeks. She was also very busy and had a lot of things to take care of (festivals and such). One day we bumped into each other in an empty corridor. She seemed really surprised/nervous and so was I. That day, I slipped my number to her before leaving quicky (I wouldn't have many other opportunities to see her). Nearly two weeks later, nothing and only finals are left before holidays... Maybe it's just not the right moment but I'm going insane and try not to hope anymore.
The three black men who raped and murdered my sister got caught last night. I am so sick of people saying that black lives matter when so many of them do stuff like this!