I hope something bad happens to me so i can see just who really cares
When I leave my small town I have a list of aliases that I pick at random and pretend to be that person while I'm out. My favourite is a girl named Mariam who is poor and French
I am in love with my best friend but I know for sure she is heterosexual.I am bisexual but I haven't come out to anyone...I am too scared to tell anyone,especially not her...
I feel really pressured into having sex already? Which I know is stupid because I‘m 16 but I feel like since I’m gay it’ll never happen and all my friends are getting into relationships rn aah I hate this feeling.
I feel ugly :( :'( ...
been to a doctor that said that my thyroid gland is not working right and it makes me have agressive attitude. too bad the damage is already done
Sometimes I wanna try that bad person reputation but I would never forgive myself.
I am afraid to live my life. As a kid I always listen to teachers, never bullied someone, always helping others, I never did something against the law. As an adult neither. I never stole something, never got a ticket for speeding, parking etc, never done drugs or alcohol, never punched a stranger, never got arrested, I'm always polite specially to the elderly. In my heart I wish I could be more outgoing. I wish I could do more silly things like go swimming with no clothes on, dance in the street when you're happy, dance in the rain, sing when I ride my bike, have an one night stand, go to music festivals without feeling disgusted by all the drunk people. Go somewhere without a plan, sleep on the beach... all that kind of stuff. But I won't for one reason, and one reason only. And this may sound really really stupid but I can't help it. I have the feeling that God is watching every step, and I'm afraid that when I die I will be judged by Him and He will be disappointed in me for not controlling myself and doing stupid things. That's why I always act responsible but that also makes me a very boring person with only a few friends that have the same standards as me. I wish I didn't care.
my boyfriend is coming over this weekend, he is staying the night. he gets to see my grandma.. she passed away about 10 months ago. her headstone will look pretty with the snow. gonna be a good weekend
I am a bubbly and goofy person, but on the inside I want to kill myself and sometimes think about killing people around me. But I am too much of a coward to do anything.