~UPDATE from I'd appreciate big help here... I'm 18, I'm Male blablabla~ This morning my bff got a call from the guy, he asked if she wanted to go with her brother make a campfire. He asked if I was there and well, he came to pick us up. My bff (who knows I find this guy super nice) made me sit in front, and we talked during the WHOLE ride, about all and nothing (nothing about homosexuality yet). We arrive, start the fire, cook sausages and drink a Palm Bay each. We all talked and had a lot of laughs and good vibes. I was the one putting music and made him discover Billie Eilish. We went through her album, and Wish You Were Gay came up. He seemed to focus on it and talk less, while my friend and her brother talked. So I looked at him staring at the fire a bit silent, and I start singing the whole chorus. At some moments we locked eyes, but really brief At the end, the last "I just kinda wished you were gay" (that I sang louder cause I don't sing well so I can't be as smoothly silent as Billie) he looks up and notices me staring at him. We looked away but he laughed about it and sang again. We arrived an hour ago, and before we left, he gave a fist bump to my friend, a handshake to her brother, and when we shook hands he pulled me in a bear hug (no fighting, he's just a softer big boy) and pat my back, then rolled away... So I guess maybe success? Also: During the night, since he likes fires and lives close, he kept saying we can stay at his house anytime and come any day for a fire... Finals exams are coming and its stressing me, should I take the chance to message him and ask if I can stay for a night?
I was a quiet kid and was bullied a lot when I was in primary school. I haven't forgotten the humilation I suffered as a 11-year-old girl. School gives me anxiety even now. I get tired easily and I always have suicidal thoughts. But I know nothing lasts forever, so does school. 2 years until I'm done with school, hope i'll make it. I'll fight while I still can for my education and of course, my future.
I don't understand how girls have orgasm or squirt. I don't know the difference and how you will know you reach it. I'm a dumb.
today its my birthday, there is a party downstairs full of my family who dont even talk to me and none of my friends showed up. this is my life i guess
I've made so many mistakes in my life. And i honestly dont know why i made them....i truly dont....is it just who i am? i want to try and pick up the pieces and salvage whats left but im not sure i can forget about the past. I think the past might win...and then what comes next?
So I don't know why but I always felt like my husband deserves better, I love him with ALL MY HEART and him too. But the thing is he is too fuck*ng hot like way hot muscular body, green eyes, beautiful yellow hair.
sometimes I fake a phone call on the bus because I'm bored and nervous that someone might mug me.
I cheated on my exboyfriend, and i don't regret it. The fact that i don't regret it makes me feel like I'm a horrible person (which i probably am) But he treated me like shit for a long time, and i just couldn't stand it anymore.. my escape was to sleep with someone else.. that was my way of escaping the reality, because i didn't want to break up and break his heart and the guy i slept with was so good to me. My ex still doesn't know that i cheated (i hope). i fell in love with the other guy, but he broke my heart and i just completely lost control of everything. Now i have a new boyfriend and i love him more than i've ever loved anyone, but he is very controlling and jealous, so i don't know if i can handle being in a relationship with him any longer. I love him with all my heart, but he doesn't let me have guyfriends (i would never cheat on him and they are just friends of mine, i would never sleep with them). I really miss having them as my friends, but i love him so much.. I don't want to, but i accept his extreme controlling anyways because i don't want to lose him and i don't think i could handle it if he broke up with me..
had a big ass fight with my boyfriend, next door heard.. i cant control my anger towards myself.
My bestfriends birthday is in 1 week (she turns 20 ) and yet I don't have aaaany idea what to give her... I want to do something with her, but I don't know what... at the moment I intend to make 20 "open when..."-letters, but still: any ideas for the other part? PLEASE