I haven't gone on a date in over six months. I have one set up in two days. I'm actually kind of nervous because dating has never really been my thing. The last guy I went on a date with asked me if I wanted to be exclusive and I was honest with him and said that we needed to get to know each other better first before we became exclusive. We had only known each other for two weeks. He stopped talking to me because of my honesty. The guy I have a date set up with and I have only known each other for 3 weeks and I'm scared the same thing will happen. I do like this guy but we barely know each other and I'm not the type to jump into a serious relationship right away. I am the type that needs a friendship before a relationship because I feel like you can't have a successful relationship without a solid friendship to back it up. Every potential relationship I've had has failed because they want the whole package right away. I take things slow, but they act like a two weeks is too long. It's not that I'm afraid of commitment and I'm not a flaky person, but I need more than a couple of weeks before I can give someone the girlfriend card. Maybe it's just me, but you would think a guy would prefer to have someone who doesn't jump into serious right away. I know it kind of freaks me out when guys want everything right away.
I was taken to someone's house, and asked to participate in something I don't agree with, by someone who knows this. Was later asked to return, and feel like an a@@&! for saying no. I felt like I was asked to go, solely to be exploited. This is why I why I stay to myself.
I hate it when my friends are happy because I'm a sad piece of sh*t
I'm working as a masseuse. This is for all the fat, stinky, pervert and/or old male costumers: - I don't like you. I'm only smiling because you pay me. - Take a shower before you come. Because of your smell I want to rub off my own skin. - I would rather hold a spider than touching you right now. - Do I look like I'm enjoying this? - No, I don't want to give you a "happy ending", and why the fuck can't you do that yourself? - That's free. - Brushing your teeth is not a sin. But I'm pretty sure you will end in hell after killing me just because you were talking to me. - Why aren't you covering your dick with the towel I gave you? You don't have a nice penis, I'm not interested in seeing it, it doesn't make me horny and I would actually just prefer not getting eye contact with it while I'm working. - Stop flirting with me. I don't find you attractive. - You are paying for a massage. Not to grab my butt. - I am not interested in your life. You are a body that I'm massaging. Nothing more. - I am only nice to you because I'm hoping that you will pay me more. - If you are rude or annoying I will give you a bad massage. - You could be my dad or grandfather. Stop all of your thoughts. - I am making puking faces behind your back. - I feel like doing like Ross in F.R.I.E.N.D.S. and using spoons instead of my hands.
I hate the fact that I can not have children but this whore (who is going to have 3 men at the hospital for DNA) just keeps opening get legs. She has three children that she does not have (The state took them) and pregnant with another one. The problem is that she is smoking that "fake" weed and she don't care. The baby is not measuring up. The baby's head is a lot bigger than his body. Does she care? No she is going to keep having kids while me and my husband can't have any children. I sometimes have to wonder how this is fair...
I hate kids, they're annoying.
I went to my boyfriends last night. We watched movies and cuddled and stuff. I woke up this morning to a murder scene in his bed. HELLO PERIOD...
I focus on any random famous girl, it makes it easier to forget my ex.
We bought a new door system. Is it so hard to understand that if you can go out of the door, that you can't always come in. If you can pull the door you can come back in. If you can't pull the door you can't come back in. It's as easy as that why can no one understand that. Just leave the door open. Let the burglars in. It's not my fucking problem when you don't have the money to maintain this house, because people just walk in like it is their house, because their is no security like a normal door system that every modern house has. Let them rob you. Let them steal all your money and credit cards. I just stop going to school, get a fucking job in another part of the country and never talk with them again when this happens. "Who will gonna rob us?" - Quote from a person who didn't get robbed before.
I feel as though im nothing like everyone hates me im always a disappointment to my parents and they think i spend to much time alone on my tablet but i do this because im always afraid of being with actual people they always judge me and tell me im too diffrent to be frineds the frineds i do have judge me because i like the same sex (im a girl) and my girlfriend is ignoring me and i haven't heard from her in 4 weeks and i think shes cheating on me too i barely talk anymore and im always angry but its unfair why cant people just expect that ther are people who are diffrent but no im judged and so is everyone else because they arnt "normal."