I need to get high asap.
Is social interaction really a need? It's hard to understand how it could have an effect on health.
It's been my turn to write my part of a group project. I don't think I've done any good but I've yet to come up with a way to make it better. I'm worried that I just made the whole thing worse and I'm afraid to show it to others. It's much easier to do independent projects where I don't have to worry about dragging other people down with my shitty writing. When working alone, I can just scrape together whatever I can and submit it like "whatever, the teacher is the only one who'll see it and it won't affect anyone but me". And yeah, I'll be honest: I'm also scared of talking to other people. That's another thing that makes group work difficult.
There are a group of turkeys that walk around my apartment complex and the neighborhood. They are oblivious that next week is a day, millions of people put birds like them, in the oven overnight at 250 degrees.
I was offered a job lately and accepted without even asking what exactly I'll have to do there. When I was invited for the interview, I was so nervous that I just agreed on everything they asked me - even when they explained my tasks, I said I can do it. I just was so nervous. I signed the work contract and everything. But I actually don't want to do this job, I don't really have the qualifications even though I told them so, and also, I hate the work I'll have to do - but I don't have the guts to tell my boss. Because of the two week notice thing. I have to start on Monday and they count on me because they won't find another person until then. I've already decided to do it. But I'm still terribly afraid because I'll be making a fool out of myself, even in front of some people I know. In a year, I'll probably look back an laugh about it, but right now it's bad. I can't even sleep. Thanks for letting me get it off my chest.
I'm having a shitty day
A while ago I did something really stupid and I just found out that I could've died or at least get sick. I wanted to pour the fluid out of a room fragrance bottle into another (prettier) bottle. The opening of the second bottle was really small, and the opening of the first was weird, so I first poured the fluid into a regular, empty water bottle and then into the second one. I somehow forgot that I did this and filled the water bottle with water. And drank it. It tasted bitter, but I first didn't know why so I drank more, until it got too bitter to stand it. I have no idea why I did this. The fluid is toxic. I wonder how I'm still alive. I had no signs of sickness at all.
Holy shit, now I'm getting addicted to this site too? Have to really get a grip on myself.
When none of your facebook friends post on your page to wish you a happy birthday, that's sad. When your so called best friend doesn't wish you a happy birthday at all, that's devastating. But when even noone on your family, except for your mother and a missed call from your grandma, care to wish you a happy birthday - then you know you're worthless. My life has reached an all time low, and combined with all the other problems I have, the realization that I'm almost completely alone makes me so miserable.
everyone leaves. I just make it easy for them.