I want to sleep with older guys so much. I get so turned on when I think about having a guy 10 to 20 years older than me on or in me. but none around me wants to do it.

I have the habit of watch gay porn I don't know why I do it to be honest I am a Christian female. but for some reason I am very attractive to it Lord please forgive me

will be 28 soon and yes still a virgin 27 lonely years never had a boyfriend never dated was all was scared to b/c of my lack of self-esteem only two years separating from the big 30 I am sad that will never find love