Semua yang aku lakuin selalu ga bisa bagus. Seuseless ini aku?
I have attachment issues and because I know that, I now distance myself to others to avoid manifesting my problem and it's impulses....
I need advices. So my father is cheating on my mother. I know it is their problem and I shouldn't meddle. But. But this slut just sent my youngest sister hurtful words and telling her she is a thick face for even messaging our father using our dad's phone. MY MOM AND DAD STILL LIVES TOGETHER WITH OUR SIBLINGS, not living with the slut or not because my dad has a new family. So my youngest sister is hurt and crying, I know it isn't our dad since the style of text/format is different. I am trying to let it go and still not meddle. Then this slut would stop our dad giving school fees. Money isn't a problem at all but now whenever there's school fees to pay, the slut would non-stop text my dad. (I can say that because no one texts my dad multiple times and my dad doesn't look at his phone multiple times and if it's for work, they always call or message once. Our father used to asked us to check his phones for any update from work if he is doing something). Nowadays, our father won't even give them for meals (it isn't like that before the slut came). So what do I do now?
Unpopular opinion of the day: I actually like that it's normal nowadays to break up various relationships during your life and that people constantly get divorces. There's a social pressure on so many things, I'm just glad that this isn't among them anymore. I'm glad that nobody feels the need to stay in a relationship that makes them unhappy because they're afraid of what people will say. I'm glad that once I get married, I won't chicken out of it because of the dread of having to decide something for the rest of my life (how it's often portrayed in movies, you know). I also think staying together means a lot more when it's more normal to break up for people, and when there's no pressure on you. Nowadays we have the choice to repair a relationship, and deciding to do so means something, unlike in the past days when you simply had to try to stick together. Sure, there are downsides to it; I guess I don't have to name them. But every coin has two sides. So yeah, that's my personal opinion on that.
why she must be here oh God...
I feel like my best friend is now closer to my sister than she is to me. Now I have no one. I mean, yeah, I have other friends, but I'm not as close with them, and I probably never will be. That's not the kind of thing you can just... make happen. You can't force someone to have a deeper connection with you. It's so hard to make friends. Why can't I have just one person? Just one friend who doesn't leave me. One friend to spend time with, to talk to about things we have in common, to support in their times of need but also to lean on when I need help. Is that too much to ask? Is it too much to ask for just one friend?
i've been told that a lot can change in a year, never believed that... Now, it's been 4 months since i started a new beginning, i'm screwed up.
am I gonna make it? am I will not disappoint my parents? I'm such a useless girl
I don't know what is wrong with me. I'm often secretly hate people eventhough i have no idea about them. I just think that they're bad person for me, and when I knew, the bad side of them appears.
My roommate such an asshole! I want to slap her face