It was so difficult for me to find out that my biological father who raped my mom looks like me. Everytime i view the mirror I just hated myself... I cant bear to forgive him when I met him. Now I cant bear to see myself in the mirror.
I've reached in my sessions with my psychologist an impass. There's problems I have that can't be solved word's but with actions. I'm just too scared of life that I can't push through the difficulties I encounter and don't even try. I've become a extremely lazy man because of this.
I don't know what brought it on, but my depression has suddenly come back full force after lying dormant for so long... I feel awful. I feel so alone and unwanted. All these terrible whispers keep intruding into my mind, telling me I'm worthless and everyone would be better off with me dead. I hate feeling this way. I know it's not true. ...Right?
Ive had undiagnosed parasites for idk how long. They can really fk up your mind and you dont know