I have an idea for a book/short story, but I don't know if it's stupid. It starts off as a love story, from the point of view of a guy who falls in love with a girl, but his roommate and her get along better and it makes him jealous. But in the end, he gets her. But it's not really the end, because the second half is written from the girl's perspective and reveals that the guy is actually a psycho, the roommate is a dog she dogsits for him and they don't really end up together, he just thinks that in his sick mind and is actually a stalker. Yeah... that's it. I don't care if anyone steals the idea, because I probably won't have the guts to write it anyways.
Why did Chester have to die? :C
I have a really thin body type naturally. I have always been *almost* underweight but still healthy (doctor-approved). I am 1.63m tall, female, and my weight is usually around 50kg. Which is still okay, but shouldn't be less. Well, lately I have lost my appetite. I blamed it on the summer heat that I only ate twice a day and small portions, but now the summer heat is gone since 2 weeks ago and I continue to eat less and less. Even if I try eating more, I can't swallow it. I lost 2kg in one month. I have no clue what it could be - every disease google shows me doesn't fit my (lack of) symptoms, and my doctor didn't take me very seriously - I think she just assumed I'm anorexic. She could do a few tests, but they're expensive. I don't know if I should just wait until my appetite reappears or if I should be more alarmed. (It certainly didn't help that my doctor told me how dangerous a low weight is and that I should better see a PSYCHOLOGIST).
Some people are just unprofessional pieces of shit. Fuck em. The bitchass motherfuckers. Gotta vent, but they really shouldn't be worth my fucking time. But I know I can't keep it bottled in.
Feels good to clear your consience C:
I hated her so much yet I loved her so much. Thinking of catching her on the bed with a guy sunk my heart, felt like a million spears just went through my body. All the love, consideration, affection, sex, etc she gave me was all a wall? I don't think so. When she was with me, I felt what pure love was like. it was that pure and every moment I see her, I tell myself that this is it I found my mate for life. After I broke up the day after this incident, she happily went with this guy. What was she doing all these times with me? Playing? I don't know. There wasn't a single bad thing that i could find with her. She helped me a lot in every fucking thing I know. She made my depression and anxiety go away like cleaning my nose. Enough saying good about her. She died in a car accident with her new boyfriend, straightaway colliding into a truck. The car looked like it got vaporized into thin air. I don't know what to emotionally feel now. I've been sitting on the edge of my bed for the past 4 hours doing nothing but staring at the floor tiles with a calm face. What is wrong with me....
you can be a real Dick sometimes. I swear I wish I hadn't married you sometimes. why the fuck do you have to disagree with everything I say?? I swear whenever you puss me off I feel completely justified for sleeping with other men. Fuck you. you gave me a fucking std! ! my fucking husband! maybe it was one of those bitches you cheated on me with when I was trying to be the good wife and waiting at home for you. advice to women: don't get fucking married!!
I already give you big chance and small chances, and many warnings for you to change. I don't think you are able to work with me anymore.
Turning off my humanity....
idk if it's just my University but I love how nobody cares what you look like, you get complements on wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt because you're comfortable. everyone seems to understand that University is hard work and it's more important to be comfortable and spend time studying than to look like a model. no one cares if you brush your hair or are wearing designer dresses or heals. they're more impressed if you got 6hours of sleep, had time to study for all your courses and maybe even took a nap.